As Raw as Raw can be..

This is a bit of a different post then my health and fitness tips..

I want to touch on the mind battles I face daily and I'm sure others face too in their own way..

At the age of 14 my dad got sick and my life got turned upside down, in the blink of an eye I had to grow up very fast and watch my role model and rock fall apart in front of my eyes..

When you feel so many years of pain you go numb.. I turned my numbness into my motivation and my drive..

Every since that day I feel like my life has been running at 100 miles and hour and I'm in fight or fly mode..

Its all or nothing with no in-between..

I smash out my training and eat clean then when I'm on track I find myself  purposely sabotage myself and my diet and have to start again..

Why? I'm not sure..  I guess a part of my heart still hurts and thats what I'm used to feeling for so long I forget what happiness feels like

I have achieved so much and I have huge goals and I'm pushing hard..


The biggest thing I want to say and what I want to share is every is fighting battles and it is ok to talk about it out loud..

You have to work hard for happiness its about working on yourself and letting go of the past...
You aren't alone we all go through it and I want to talk about it..
There is too much wishy washy fucking bullshit and fake blah blah on Facebook and insta

Lets be honest and lets be real with ourselves and talk about whats going on in our heads so we can grow and learn